Sad Christmas

I love to cook and bake cookies for my neighbors during the Christmas season. This year however, it has been hard to be in the mood. I lost 3 grandparents in 6 weeks this year. What makes things even harder is I don't know if they knew Christ. My heart aches for them. Are they in Heaven with our wonderful Lord and Savior? Or did they stand before Him covered in their sins?

Christmas Memories:

When I was a kid I loved getting together with my all my Grandparents. I loved having my family close. The women in my family would get together and bake cookies every year. I loved seeing my cousins. I just assumed my children would have the same. I really wanted my kids to have some of the same traditions I had as a child. I have learned that is not going to happen. My family is more then 400 miles away the see my kids 1 or 2 times a year.

My kids have 3 cousins and don't even know it. They have 2 aunts and 2 uncles and don't even know it. There aunts and uncles live very close. They don't see them or spend time with them as much as I wish. I have learned just because it is important to me it is not important to others.

I am so thankful for my hubby and children. I thank God for them every day. I just wish I had people I could be close to. I know God is in control and he has me where he wants me. It feels lonely sometimes.

After talking to the hubby, we have decided to make our own traditions or own memories. Now we just need to figure out what those traditions should be.

My kids are currently fighting in the other room "Oh happy memories" grrrrrrrrrrrrr